Some of my Facebook friends were privy to the concerns that I had developed in the days leading up to the trip. Usually my emotions are full of excitement and anticipation but not this time. I wasn't sure if it was unknowns about the future of things with Melissa's mother showing up or the future of my role in ministries in Haiti. All I was sure was that this trip was not feeling "right." So what I always do when I feel like this is pray...pray...pray. I prayed the Lord would take this trip and use it for HIS plan and glory. I gave Greg a short list of things I'd like to do when I came and I readied for the trip.
On the flight, I had some concentrated time to read the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan.
It was exactly the word I needed to hear. By the time I got off the plane in Port au Prince I was recharged and ready for God's plan. It really focused me to surrender to God's love and plan for me in ALL things. It occured to me as I finished this book, why so many fall in love with Haiti and discipling here.
On our way to the guesthouse, I had to laugh at myself as the Lord once again taught me to never say never. While in Charlotte I believe, I watched an employee sweeping up litter outside on the tarmac/concourse. He really was having to search for anything to sweep given the pristine look of the area. I thought to myself, "you'd never see that in Haiti."